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About Lotus

INTP Taurus 19M Whiteboy
Libertarian Absurdist, from Chicago ("You wouldn't get it, you're not from Chicago.")
Sloth,House Brownie, Dreaming, Reading.
I love words, beautiful things, characters that make me smile, and stories that make me cry.
I AM, a collection of invented epithets.
A questionnaire
Fun Facts!

Used to get bloody noses all the time as a kid.
Try to cover ankles, knees, and chest at all times.
Will not shave legs. That is for gay men.
Can't drink coffee, screws with me.
Pace all the time. Manic, I suppose.
Traveled a lot. It was OK. (Italy, Taiwan, Alaska, most of the States, Uruguay, Argentina, Bolivia.)
Non-immediate family is crazy.
Think too much.
Got to be backstage as a kid, it was OK. It was always funny when adults apologized for swearing or smoking.
First food was apparently a Parisian bagette, and my first words were "Uh Oh," says a lot about me :P.
Adult Fiction is dumb. Sex and drugs don't make your book better.

Favorites

Movies: The Secret of Kells, The Last Unicorn, The Corpse Bride, What Dreams May Come, MirrorMask, The Usual Suspects
Books: The Book Thief
Manga: Land of the Lustrous, XXXholic
Music: TOOL, Live, Staind, Tori Amos, System of a Down. Want Industrial/Postrock/Experimental electronic stuff. Deftones, Pijn, Machine Girl, etc. Sneaker Pimps, Portishead, lighter stuff works too, particularly electronic Jazz.
Games: Halo: CE, Raze, Strike Force II, Fortnite. Brain-dead shooters, Halo is a work of art though.
Font: Georgia. Garamond is nice, but hard to read. Both probably snooty picks.
TV: Firefly, The Amazing World of Gumball, The West Wing
Foods: Chocolate, Oranges, Apples, Toffee, Brownies, Caramels, Custards, Rice, Pasta, Eggs, Tofu, Tomatoes, Curries, Indian, Thai, Chinese, Ethiopean, Jamaican, Creole, Italian, Sushi, Ramen, Creamy, rich foods... I love food...
Characters: Rorschach from Watchmen, Dean from Iron Giant, V from V for Vendetta. I admire antiheroes.
Colors: Orange, Purple/Maroon, Black, Sage, White, Brown.

Let me disassemble your chickenscratch heart grenade
Let me unfold you, unravel you, and weave you back together
Let your quiet panic, your silent anguish, melt away into the wind
In your stormy clouds I see rainbows.

We take a short detour from our parade to inform you. I tend to obsess wrongly. The twists and turns of my life make me exceeding joy or despicable, and concealed within/expressed without through dramatic theatrics. I fear that my presence is incorrectly interpreted as it should be, noone understands me least of all me. This site is a form for filling with projected intent, so that I can observe and clarify my own disease. I am a very conflicted person. Enjoy!

How do I hit you with the blunt end of this hammer? I can't tell you the truth. It's no fun. Dance with my lies. And if they mean nothing to you, don't bed them. Sorry for coughing up so much ink.

I stand alone in a crowd of unwanted wannabes
more than a little irony and insanity
I hate you all and love you anyway.
A freak with a frenetic heartbeat
constantly off-key
Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy
hipster loser loner why?
If I don't kill (laugh) then I might cry
Welcome to my life of try.

About

Lotus Cube is a personal website with art, words, and stuff like that. I also have a collection of playlists/mixtapes, and I occasionally work on a dark medieval RPG called Grim.

Hobbies and Interests

Hehehe. Html, cooking, baking, fiction, poetry, crappy essays, blogging, layout/editing, TTRPG design, rockhounding, Amtgard, tarot, herbalism, sketching, have done hand and machine sewing, embroidery, and knitting. Want to start a food-medicine-paradise garden, learn Russian, learn to play bass, zine-making or bookbinding, internet radio, homebrewing and fermentation and just get better at... everything. Oh, and pottery and jewelry making too. I'm a dilettante disaster.

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