The Bucket Of Epiphanies

of varying value

By making an us there's a them. By being in there's an out. By asking a question, you are lesser. By giving an answer, I make you greater. Knowledge is power, and secrecy is withholding that power. A group that holds a secret holds power over the outsiders. Even if there is no secret. And therefore the secret and the covenant IS the power.

Everything is energy and vibrations moving slow enough to be perceived and experienced. Your thoughts are energy, aren't they? Ripples from action, waves and vibrations, frequencies, energy, and personal (salvage the word!) vibes.

I've always thought the world is one big brain/computer, and we're each a neuron, connecting and lighting up.

Anything that can break in a system, will. I'd like to add: Complexity is opportunity for corruption. Transparency and responsibility with taxpayer dollars? Are you kidding?

Be ye wise as serpents and innocent as doves. Be an undercover Christian.

If you value your thoughts, keep them.
Conversely, if it's important you'll remember it.

"We create because we are unhappy with the world as it is." Glorious.

Growing up is being able to buy ice cream whenever you want and not wanting to anymore

Using a knife is more like punching than swinging.

As a child I detested immaturity. I imagine forgiveness is more mature. Adults aren't that mature anyways.

I love to speak my mind but hate conflict. Tactlessly.

Kids are morbid. "You can kill someone with anything if you're creative enough."

Blog is a way to have an indirect conversation and something to reflect on.

I loathe minimum requirements. I said what I meant to. My defiance is usually only meeting the minimum.

They say that readers live a thousand lives. Not sure that's great. Living vicariously sucks out your own life. (Abomination from Dune)

Be gregarious!

If you have a weird name, people start off on the back foot around you. Manipulative evil shit.

There is safety in self-effacement.

Childhood memory: dead dove with maggots in its belly behind a building. Can't remember if we buried it. Apparently there's been a lot of death in my life. Fitting for a child of number 4. Makes me think of the Crow; "You grow up the day you know you're going to die."

I associate autism with gemini/infp/genius/rebel action. Specific person I'm thinking of.

I am afraid of talking because I have so many ideas when I try to talk people get tired of them and me -> Communication is botherance -> talk and think to self, don't finish ideas. It's a INTP thing apparently.

Government is based on the illusion of peace and prosperity. As long as there is a government, there is peace. As long as there is peace, government is justified. (Disturbing the peace, keepers of the peace, disillusionment)

If government isn't in control, what is it for?

Nothing by itself makes me happy. A well-balanced life would make me happy. I am anything but well-balanced.

Bliss is like uncrinkling a piece of paper that is my soul.

The most complete kind of control is ideological loyalty. (I'm thinking of Dune)

Fools deal in absolutes.

How much of what is beautiful is tucked away by inconvenience?

There is no difference between an event, a place, a thing, or a person. They are all merely a confluence of factors. (atoms bouncing around)

I am not a burden anyone should bear - Misheard TOOL lyric.

Every descriptor applies in some way to Humanity and to God.

How awful it must be to be a hero. To believe in something, and pursue it at all costs. Explanation: if there wasn't a happy ending for the hero, he or she might be considered an obsessive psychopath.

I'm convinced life is just one of those recurring dreams. This one just won't end.

Fashion - An expression of creativity but also self and selfishness. What is expression? It allows us to recognize similar spirits and those from our tribe. Culture. Who is my tribe?

Just another guy writing his dreams out with sidewalk chalk, admiring the drunken stumbles of his frantic mind.

On the internet, a cute video of a cat is as important as an actual fucking country on fire. Is there any wonder why we don't care?

Where does fairness come from? Society tries to make things more fair when life is inherently unfair. Someone has to lose, someone has to be on top.

Energy, money, systems, be intentional with what systems and wolves you feed. Every dollar is a vote.

Teeth, nail clippings. Human debris.

People are like a bouquet of totally different flowers.

I have a really bad relationship with my body. I see it as something separate from me, the case for my mind. It has needs that I fail to take care of. Call it neglect, but I forget to treat it right and prevent things from falling apart. I don't really mind falling apart because I always have cushions.
Walking and taking some time with yourself to be bored is actually very indulgent... fulfilling I guess. Trails, personally, are less "wow trees are cool" and more "wow, this tree doesn't want shit from me and wont stab me in the back like a nasty greedy human." Relaxin to get away from it all

Heat is a hug from God. Rain is also a gift from God. Life is a gift

"Learn to enjoy every minute of your life"

Dying is the most dramatic thing you can do. Die to prove a point, die to make it interesting, die metaphorically, make someone else die, and so on.

Whenever I get scared of fiction, I remind myself that humans are far more terrifying and threatening. There is no predicting what they will do. They invented evil, and bring it farther every day. Theoretically there can always be more, but we have quite a lot. I'm satisfied with the evils we've already invented. Aren't you?

Busy not getting anywhere

Tragedies have to happen to somebody. If you're stupid the odds are much higher

If you don't like the results change the method.

I wait for happiness.

I love capitalism. I am against Consumerism.

If you work for inflation-dollars by the hour, your life is valued in a depreciating currency. We're in a recession, and it hurts, and it could go to where hundred dollar bills are tissue paper. Just check the national debt.

Carbon Offsets is Christian Indulgences aka paid Sin Forgiveness.

Budgeting just cuts the apple smaller, it doesn't make the apple bigger.

Doing more than we were meant for is the human spirit. Something from nothing.

This page is like an abusive mother writing fortune cookies.

I've got a head for a heart and a heart for a head.

Iron sharpens iron.

Gen Z: first generation raised with Internet and Memes. Don't know why that was astounding to me.

I love that books are organized as Fiction and Non-fiction, with fantasy placed first.

Sometimes a sage, always a fool.

Money can't buy happiness? Fridge brownies is happiness-on-demand.

Secondhand social media is optimal.

All interaction should be voluntary.

We all have the same amount of time. One second, over and over. We are fooled into thinking we have more time. Cherish every moment you have.

You deserve better from yourself.
Noone else can give you what you want.

You have the same 24 hours in a day as everyone else. Why aren't you "succeeding"?

Emotions are like bulls. They are very real, very dangerous, and often unreasonable. Go get 'em, Matador.

I am conflicted because on one hand I am moody and egotistical, and on the other I am trying to tell myself to cut the shit and kill my ego. I am constantly fighting myself. Both parts are equally "me" though. All my stupidity is "me."